Work and an over thinking mind

Andy has started work.  After 6 months of studying and then holidaying sabbatical he has now joined the ranks of the workforce again.  So after 2 days in all is going well.  

Therefore I am 2 days into being a stay at home Mum with our 2 dearly beloved.  So far so good.  Unfortunately it has bucketed down with rain for the last 5 days or so and therefore it has been hard getting out and about.  We have however been to our local library, signed up and and taken some books out already.  Been to the Mall to get some essentials and have checked out a pre-school for Finn.  It was nice but I'm not sure if it is really the right one for us.  It is really more of a long day care arrangement which is fine but not really what we are looking for as it isn't very flexible if I only want 1/2 a day or even 6 hours.  You have to pay for the full 11 or so hours available regardless as to whether they are there that long.  So, I have found another pre-school near us which is 9-3 only during term time which is much more what I am looking for.  Therefore, as we are in the spring break school holidays at the moment it is shut.  I will give them a ring on Monday, I have a good feel about this one so fingers crossed.

I have also found a local Kindergym nearby which runs for an hour 3 days a week and there is a class that I can do with Finn & Isla together which is prefect.  As soon as I have a few pre-school days set for Finn then I will get the swimming lessons sorted.  It's all starting to come together now!

We took a drive up to Palm Beach the other day which is where they film Home & Away.  It is a lovely little beach and Andy and I sat like pensioners in our camp chairs while Finn & Isla played in the sand at our feet.  It was so relaxing!  There were a crew on the beach and some poor model in a bikini jumping around for hours on end.  She must of been freezing, bet they have to do a bit of air brushing on her!

 She did the same pose again and again and again....for hours.  We went to lunch, came back and she was still doing it!

 Miniature furniture for miniature people.

 

 Palm Beach.  A lovely place to visit and we will again.

 Seriously.  This is too cute.  Holding hands at the Sydney Aquarium.  Finn sporting a swanky new hair cut looking like such a big boy.

 Butter wouldn't melt.

 Isla dealing with a bowl of ice cream at Nick's in Darling Harbour like the seasoned professional she is!

 Ditto.

 Isla not getting the joke....

 While in Darling Harbour we stumbled upon a bank holiday Fiesta event.  All Latin style dancing, singing etc on 5 stages around the harbour.  We saw these guys and it immediately reminded me of Moonraker.  I thought F & I would be scared but they so weren't.

Finn catching a ride for a much better view.

Things going through my head at the moment:

• Will we buy a house here
• When will it be, we have been off the property ladder for 9 months now, refreshing as it was at the time I worry about the future and when we will achieve our mortgage settlement
• Sydney is expensive, where will we buy a house, will we buy land and build?  Where is a good affordable place to buy but that offers all we need, what are the schools like.
• What about primary schools and then secondary schools, will be able to get ourselves into the position to be able to afford some private education at secondary level.  Private schools are pretty pricey unless you go for a religion based school.  Would that be best to ensure a good peer group mix?  But then is that teaching them what we want....although we will always encourage them to make their own minds ups.
• What are the long term consequences of the move we have just made.  We have changed our paths so much from the norm.  What about when Finn & Isla are adults and we are still here...
• Have we done the right thing.  I do miss my family.
• Could we have achieved what we wanted in the UK?
• Will I make some life long friends here.  The type that you know for so long that when you are together you can just be.  I miss my 2 best girls.  How do I really do this and move on from the superficial how are you?
• Can I grow old and die here.  Who would come to my funeral.  Does it matter?
• I often think it's not just about the destination it's about the journey as well.  I don't want to always play it safe.  Will I ever be able to "settle" anywhere again, I worry not.
• Will I ever be able to survive going more than 5k in any direction without Tom Tom? 
• I worry about not having a clear cut path and plan which is what I and we have always had.  We are so transient at the moment while we rent and start to make plans for the future.
• Will I be able to do all I want to do with photography as a career, will it be sorted by the time F & I go to school.
• Will be ever find an evening babysitter who we can trust so we can go out again once in a while?

I think too much and would like to be able to switch it off sometimes.   Happy but so many thoughts.....